Breathless Expectation

“Education is not the filling of a pail, but the lighting of a fire.” – William Butler Yeats
(BrainyQuote)

Today’s word of the day, from Dictionary.com, is woodnote, which means, “a wild or natural musical tone, as that of a forest bird.” I’m a fan of woodnotes, in that case. I find them to be very relaxing.

Today, it turns out, is Hairball Awareness Day. Anyone who has ever had a cat is very aware of hairballs. And to celebrate, I give you this new Bloom County comic by Berkeley Breathed.
Hairball Day

Christi is coming home tonight! What a relief. I did sleep better last night, but that was probably out of sheer exhaustion from not sleeping well the previous two nights. I still don’t feel rested. I’ll be waiting up for her tonight.

We may be getting some thunderstorms on the morning drive to work, so I’d better get to the serious stuff.

TODAY’S DEVOTIONAL

(From Praying With the Psalms)

But you, O LORD, laugh at them; you hold all the nations in derision.
O my Strength, I will watch for you, for you, O God, are my fortress.

My God in his steadfast love will meet me; God will let me look in triumph on my enemies.
Kill them not, lest my people forget; make them totter by your power and bring them down, O Lord, our shield!
For the sin of their mouths, the words of their lips, let them be trapped in their pride. For the cursing and lies that they utter,
consume them in wrath; consume them till they are no more, that they may know that God rules over Jacob to the ends of the earth. Selah.
Each evening they come back, howling like dogs and prowling about the city.
They wander about for food and growl if they do not get their fill.
But I will sing of your strength; I will sing aloud of your steadfast love in the morning. For you have been to me a fortress and a refuge in the day of my distress.
O my Strength, I will sing praises to you, for you, O God, are my fortress, the God who shows me steadfast love.

Psalm 59:8-17

“A good laugh restores perspective and sanity.” The psalm that begins with the presence of enemies all around ends “with relaxed praise.” The thing that makes the difference is the presence of “divine laughter,” which “exposes the silly pretensions of wicked oppressors.”

“Rescue me, God, from obsessive worries about what might go wrong because of evil people. Develop a hearty cheerfulness in me that is confident of your strength. If you can laugh at the wicked, I can too. Amen.”

(From My Utmost For His Highest)

“The Graciousness of Uncertainty”

Beloved, we are God’s children now, and what we will be has not yet appeared; but we know that when he appears we shall be like him, because we shall see him as he is.
1 John 3:2

Jesus asked us to believe in him, not to believe certain things about him. We ought always to keep this in mind when we are tempted to become obsessed with creeds and statements of belief. We tend to be mathematical and calculating about things, even about our faith.

However, if we are certain about God, it means that we might have to live with being uncertain about ourselves. “To be certain of God means that we are uncertain in all our ways, we do not know what a day may bring forth. This is generally said with a sigh of sadness; it should be rather an expression of breathless expectation.” Remember that as you head out for your day, today.

Father, may I live my life in “breathless expectation” of what you will do. I am very uncertain of me, and what this day may bring, but I am most certain about you. You are good and you are just. You will do what you say you will do, and you do whatever you please. And I am okay with that.

Come, Lord Jesus!

Grace and peace, friends.

Surprised and Delighted

“Reading is like thinking, like praying, like talking to a friend, like expressing your ideas, like listening to other people’s ideas, like listening to music, like looking at the view, like taking a walk on the beach.” ― Roberto Bolaño, 2666
(Goodreads)

Today’s word of the day, from the Oxford English Dictionary, is contronym, “A word with two opposite or contradictory meanings.” Another way to put it is a word which is its own antonym. Some examples are dust (you can dust the strawberries with powdered sugar, or you can dust the shelf, removing the dust), overlook (you can monitor or inspect, or you can completely miss it), and you can sanction (either permit or grant approval, or condemn or penalize).

Today is Thank You Thursday. “Thank You Thursday is a great opportunity to start making positive change in this situation by recognizing those in your life who make things easier, those who love you, and those who just make your day better by tossing you a smile and a friendly hello.”

Last night’s Anchor prayer gathering went well. We wound up only having three people; our host, the pastor, and me. But we had a nice time of praying together. Christi, of course, is in Las Vegas, and the other lady who came to the first one has been sick this week. Hopefully, it will catch on a little more. It’s not real convenient to leave the house in the middle of the week to go pray for an hour. But we hope that some will see the benefit and necessity of doing so.

It’s Thursday, or “pre-Friday” as we like to call it around here. I’m still tired. I slept a little better last night, but not enough. This, too, shall pass. The Red Sox beat the struggle Braves again, last night. They have one more game against them, today. The Rangers beat the struggling Yankees again, to take that series. The Rangers are in first place by a half game. The Red Sox are in second, behind Baltimore, but only a half game out. It’s too early to get too hopeful, yet, though.

TODAY’S DEVOTIONAL

(From Praying With the Psalms)

Deliver me from my enemies, O my God; protect me from those who rise up against me;
deliver me from those who work evil, and save me from bloodthirsty men.
For behold, they lie in wait for my life; fierce men stir up strife against me. For no transgression or sin of mine, O LORD,
for no fault of mine, they run and make ready. Awake, come to meet me, and see!
You, LORD God of hosts, are God of Israel. Rouse yourself to punish all the nations; spare none of those who treacherously plot evil. Selah.
Each evening they come back, howling like dogs and prowling about the city.
There they are, bellowing with their mouths with swords in their lips— for “Who,” they think, “will hear us?”

Psalm 59:1-7

An “enemy” can take various forms. We may be under “intense opposition” from “wicked people;” perhaps we are being seduced by “friends” to do something we ought not be doing; or, perhaps, there are spiritual forces at work against us. Whatever they may be, we look to God for our deliverance.

“Because I am not hunted down and thrown into prison for my faith, I develop a false sense of security. Save me, God, from such complacency. I know that the enemy has not gone away even if he is not conspicuous. ‘Lead me not into temptation: deliver me from evil.’ Amen.”

(From My Utmost For His Highest)

“What You Will Get”

“But I will give you your life as a prize of war in all places to which you may go.”
Jeremiah 45:5

In a sort of sequel to yesterday’s reading, Chambers visits another of his favorite topics, abandonment to God. In the KJV translation of the above verse, “prize of war” is translated “prey.” Chambers says this means that, no matter where you go, you will “come out with your life, nothing can harm it.” But we get so caught up in “the show of things” that we miss out on this. “All these have to go; but there is something grander that never can go – the life that is ‘hid with Christ in God.'”

When we allow God to take us into himself, we will stop paying attention to what we consider to be “great things.” Here is where we must be prepared to “abandon entirely and let go.” If we stop and say, “But what about this?” we have not abandoned; we have not fully trusted God. “Abandon means to refuse yourself the luxury of asking any questions.”

“When you do get through to abandonment to God, you will be the most surprised and delighted creature on earth; God has got you absolutely and has given you your life. If you are not there, it is either because of disobedience or a refusal to be simple enough.”

Father, I do believe; help my unbelief! I have obviously not reached this place, yet. There are still too many questions, and I am still holding on to too many unnecessary things. Teach me to abandon everything to you. I want to be “surprised and delighted” at what I discover in you! Show me your ways, that I may know you and find favor in your sight.

Come, Lord Jesus!

Grace and peace, friends.

Grace

Good morning. It is Friday, May 22, 2015. There’s only a 40% chance of rain today.

Today’s word of the day, from Merriam-Webster, is nepotism. This noun is usually used in connection with hiring, and means, “favoritism (as in appointment to a job) based on kinship.” Some companies strictly prohibit it, others embrace it.

Today is Don’t Fry Day. Get it?? You might think this has something to do with eating fried foods, but you would be mistaken. It is actually a day to raise awareness of the dangers of skin cancer from too much sun-bathing.

Christi’s Huddle was cancelled, last night, so we had our usual Thursday dinner (our own concoction that we call “Mexican soup”), and got caught up on one of our new favorite TV shows, “Battle Creek.” We talked a lot, during watching, which was nice. For me, I’m trying to suss out what I’m feeling emotionally, because, I’m at a point where I don’t know what I want, any more. Again, I realize that this is a normal piece of the grieving process, so I’m not panicking, just trying to verbalize it and work through it. I won’t belabor it, either, because I know that people will get weary of it.

The weekend is near! I’m not sure what we will do on Sunday. Thunderstorms are predicted again, so anything outdoors is probably off the table. Monday, as I have said before, we will be traveling to Mineral Wells to spend Memorial Day with my mother. Who knows what kind of “trouble” we will get into? I know one thing: I am really looking forward to this three-day weekend.

TODAY’S DEVOTIONAL

To the choirmaster: according to Do Not Destroy. A Miktam of David, when Saul sent men to watch his house in order to kill him. Deliver me from my enemies, O my God; protect me from those who rise up against me;
deliver me from those who work evil, and save me from bloodthirsty men.
For behold, they lie in wait for my life; fierce men stir up strife against me. For no transgression or sin of mine, O LORD,
for no fault of mine, they run and make ready. Awake, come to meet me, and see!
You, LORD God of hosts, are God of Israel. Rouse yourself to punish all the nations; spare none of those who treacherously plot evil. Selah.
Each evening they come back, howling like dogs and prowling about the city.
There they are, bellowing with their mouths with swords in their lips— for “Who,” they think, “will hear us?”
But you, O LORD, laugh at them; you hold all the nations in derision.
O my Strength, I will watch for you, for you, O God, are my fortress.
My God in his steadfast love will meet me; God will let me look in triumph on my enemies.
Kill them not, lest my people forget; make them totter by your power and bring them down, O Lord, our shield!
For the sin of their mouths, the words of their lips, let them be trapped in their pride. For the cursing and lies that they utter,
consume them in wrath; consume them till they are no more, that they may know that God rules over Jacob to the ends of the earth. Selah.
Each evening they come back, howling like dogs and prowling about the city.
They wander about for food and growl if they do not get their fill.
But I will sing of your strength; I will sing aloud of your steadfast love in the morning. For you have been to me a fortress and a refuge in the day of my distress.
O my Strength, I will sing praises to you, for you, O God, are my fortress, the God who shows me steadfast love.

Psalm 59

(From Knowing Jesus)

And you were dead in the trespasses and sins in which you once walked, following the course of this world, following the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that is now at work in the sons of disobedience—among whom we all once lived in the passions of our flesh, carrying out the desires of the body and the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, like the rest of mankind. But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ—by grace you have been saved—and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast. For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.
Ephesians 2:1-10

Today’s reading is “Jesus, Showcase of God’s Grace.”

We all know what it is like to receive grace. Perhaps it is the grace allowed on a bill payment, giving you extra time. Or maybe when we were in college, we got extra time to turn in a research paper (which is really a good example of grace, because the due dates are given weeks, if not months, in advance).

“The central theme of the Bible proves conclusively that all of us need grace from God.” None of us has ever achieved the holiness required by God. None of us would ever be “fit to stand in his presence and claim righteousness.” We all fail; none of us does good all of the time, and quite often do just the opposite. “We have been selfish, unkind, pushy, lustful, and greedy–if not worse.” And that’s just in the last fifteen minutes!

But God . . . Ephesians 2:4. I think those are my two favorite words in all of Scripture! But God . . . “God did something to bail us out of our predicament.” God has every right to condemn us, but he offers grace and forgiveness. During this “grace period,” we have the opportunity to say yes to Jesus.

But in order to fully accomplish this, we must say no “to all other efforts to please God and gain his favor.” We must realize that we cannot do anything to gain God’s favor! It’s either Jesus, or it’s nothing.

“Jesus proves God’s grace. When we focus on Jesus, we lose sight of our impoverished, sickly, insulting ways of trying to earn credit with God. When we focus on Jesus, we confess that even our pious thoughts and deeds–our churchy religion–fall far short of making it with God.”

Jesus, being the grace of God in action, paved the way for us, the way to forgiveness and eternal life. “His grace smashes our pride.”

This grace not only forgives us, but it also prepares us for heaven (being the only way we can be “good enough”), and enables us to “represent him on earth.” We are his workmanship, as Paul says in verse 10.

There is a danger, though, in the pride that believes that we could possibly add something to this grace. We still keep thinking that we can gain favor with God. But we must embrace the truth that there is nothing that we can do that can cause God to love us any more than he already does. Neither is there anything that we can do to make him love us less. Even in the depths of our deepest, darkest sin, when God looks at us, he feels only love!

God told Paul that, “My grace is sufficient.” We need grace for salvation; we need grace for our pain and afflictions; we need grace for life. And we that grace in Jesus Christ.

Father, I praise you for grace! How well I know this grace! But yet, I still, sometimes, fall into the trap of a works mindset, thinking that I can somehow either repay you, or at least make you happy with me, by doing something “good.” I forget that the “good works” that you have prepared for me are just that . . . works that YOU prepared, and that you enabled me to do. In fact, you are the one who is actually “working!” Let me never think that I can add anything to the great grace that you have lavished on me. As the title of this blog suggests, let me revel in that grace, Lord. Let me bask in it, and let it feed me, nourish me, heal me, and cleanse me! I celebrate your grace today!

I pray for our day, Father, that we would have safe passage to and from work. Give us just enough grace and mercy for this day, that we might be true representatives of your Kingdom in our work places. I pray for Stephanie, Father, that you would touch her with your healing hand and remove whatever is making her not feel well. I pray that you would draw Rachel and Justin closer to you, and that you would continue holding up my mother. Thank you for the wonderful friends that she has through her church. I also pray for the people of FBC in Mineral Wells, as they begin the painstaking process of rebuilding what the tornado destroyed. Your grace is sufficient for them, as well.

We all need grace. We need it for everything. Those who are in Christ Jesus possess all the grace they need, every day, every minute.

Grace and peace, friends.

Praise Him For the Clouds

Good morning. It’s Sunday, July 29, 2012. I’ve been up for a couple (actually three) hours, now, and we’ve already been up to the school where The Exchange meets, to set the stage back up again. I’m back home, now, and have a short time to get my devotional in this morning. Today is “National Lasagna Day.” I’m cool with that.

On this date in 1958, NASA was created. That’s depressing. I didn’t know I was older than NASA. On this date in 1848, the Tipperary Revolt was crushed by government police. I don’t have to time to explain it. It’s a long way to Tipperary. On this date in 1981, Prince Charles and Lady Diana were married. And on this date in 2000, Brad Pitt and Jennifer Aniston were married. The moral of this story is…don’t get married on July 29. On this date in 1967, The Doors had their first #1 hit with “Light My Fire.”


We have an interesting day planned. After church, we’re having lunch with our lifehouse group. Then, this evening, we’re going to Frisco. I was given some tickets to see the Rough Riders this evening, and with those tickets, comes access to the JCP club, which allegedly includes a buffet. Sounds like fun. So we’re going, and taking Stephanie’s boyfriend, Scottie.


Father, I pray for a glimpse of your face this morning, and I also pray that you prepare my heart for the worship celebration today.


Today, I’m reading Psalm 59. In this Psalm, David again prays for deliverance from his enemies. I am drawn, however, to the last two verses.
But I will sing of your strength; I will sing aloud of your steadfast love in the morning. For you have been to me a fortress and a refuge in the day of my distress.
O my Strength, I will sing praises to you, for you, O God, are my fortress, the God who shows me steadfast love.


My Utmost For His Highest

Behold, he is coming with the clouds. Revelation 1:7

Clouds always seem to be connected with God. Clouds tend to be identified with sorrows our trials, things which, on the surface, “seem to dispute the rule of God.” But, it is through those clouds that the Spirit teaches us to walk by faith. “If there were no clouds, we should have no faith.” Clouds are the dust of his feet. (Nahum 1:3) I actually posted an entry back in September that featured that verse, along with a video of a song from the album, At the Foot of the Cross. You can see that HERE, if you are so inclined. “What a revelation to know that sorrow and bereavement and suffering are the clouds that come along with God!”
Chambers says that it is not necessarily true that God wants to teach us something with every trial. Rather, “He wants us to unlearn something. His purpose in the clouds is to simplify our belief until our relationship to Him is exactly that of a child – God and my own soul, other people are shadows.”
We must learn to “interpret the mysteries of life in the light of our knowledge of God.” Can we look at the darkest, blackest facts of life full on without damaging God’s character? If not, we don’t truly know him. Is there anyone but Jesus in our clouds? It will only get darker if there is anything else in my clouds.

This all sounds rather complicated. I don’t know if I can simplify it or not. The point is, I think, that, without the clouds, which signify struggles in our lives, we would certainly have no need for faith. One of the purposes of these “clouds” is that we manage to “unlearn” things that we have incorrectly believed about God, throughout our lives. I would not say that God does not want to teach us things through the trials, for when we “unlearn” one thing, we certainly learn another thing. However, simplification of the relationship between self and God is certainly a goal. We tend to make things much more complicated than they truly are. It’s kind of like the readings on obedience. Our obedience is the goal, not the place we think that obedience will take us. In my case, God’s purpose, the NOW that he has me in, is intercessory prayer. My obedience is the goal. I am not looking for the great blessing that I think I will receive because I have obeyed. The obedience IS the blessing. The fact that I am serving God by doing what he wants me to do is the blessing. I need nothing else. As have worked on learning this, which requires “unlearning” things that were not correct, there have been “clouds.” This has increased faith. So I will not despair if more clouds come. I will look for that which needs to be unlearned, and seek to be obedient.


Continuing in Life Together, Bonhoeffer reminds us again that this idea of community is not an ideal to be realized.

Just as Christians should not be constantly feeling the pulse of their spiritual life, so too the Christian community has not been given to us by God for us to be continually taking its temperature. The more thankfully we daily receive what is given to us, the more assuredly and consistently will community increase and grow from day to day as God pleases.
Christian community is not an ideal we have to realize, but rather a reality created by God in Christ in which we may participate.

(p. 38 )

It occurs to me that if I am constantly “feeling the pulse” of my spiritual life, then I am concentrating more on ME than on Christ and others. This is one thing that is desperately wrong with today’s church. There are too many “self-help” books, especially in the realm of Christianity. “Self” doesn’t need any help. It is strong enough. What needs help is the spirit, concentrating on the one who has put us into community with each other. I need to be focusing on Christ, and then praying for others. If I am doing those two things successfully, then I will not need to take my own spiritual pulse. It will be just fine.


Father, I pray that I will not look at me as much as I look at you. Give me the grace to live each day looking to your face, to live in the light of your glory. I realize that I do spend a bit of time each morning, praying for myself. However, these are prayers that I might work into my life what you are teaching me during these morning devotions. Hopefully, I am spending more time during the rest of the day thinking and praying about others, which is your desire for my life at this point. Let me not worry about my own pulse; likewise, let us not be concerned about the pulse of our community groups. Let us focus on you and your people, praying as we are led, and looking to your face for wisdom.
When clouds come into my life, for they will, I pray that I will see only you in them. Let me not look to others for guidance; let me not seek human wisdom in my clouds. Let all others be but shadows. You are the shining light in my clouds, Father. You are my rock and my fortress.

I pray for this day. I pray for our worship celebration this morning. May we worship you this morning, shedding all distractions as we enter the place of worship. I pray (as I have already prayed) for those who will be leading us this morning. Open their hearts to your Spirit today, that they may effectively lead us before your throne, into your presence. I life up Jacob Seay, who will be bringing your word to us this morning. Open our ears as you open his mouth. May he speak only what you have given him and may we hear only what you are speaking.

Your grace is sufficient.


There will be clouds. That is unavoidable. There will be rain. If there were no rain, there would be no flowers. If there were no clouds, there would be no faith. Praise him for the clouds.

Grace and peace, friends.