Who Am I?

Today is Saturday, July 28, 2018. Day 22,052.

22 days until S turns 25!

“There are two kinds of light–the glow that illuminates, and the glare that obscures.” ~ James Thurber, 1894-1961, The Quotations Page

The word for today is hypnopedia, “sleep learning.” It is the idea that people can learn while they sleep.

C is on her way to Denton, again. She had planned to take our dining room table and chairs up there in a rented pickup, but that just didn’t work out the way she planned. Instead, she’s going car shopping with R, who is thinking about trading in her current vehicle (paid off) for a “new” used car. C really enjoys this sort of thing, and it will be good “therapy” for her, so that she doesn’t think she wasted her Saturday. She is the kind of person who always needs to feel some kind of accomplishment on weekends. I am exactly the opposite of that. I prefer to do as much nothing as possible on weekends. We balance each other out pretty well.

I will be practicing a little bit later, probably after I go pick up our Click List and some lunch for S and me. I need to play through the songs for tomorrow, and then, perhaps, wrestle with my technology a bit more to see if I can get something recorded. My “teacher” is out of town on vacation, so he is not available this weekend.

The Red Sox pulled off a tenth inning walk off win, last night, beating the Twins 4-3, on a Mookie Betts home run. This puts their record at 72-33, remaining five games up in the AL East.

The Rangers beat the Astros 11-2. I’ll give you a few minutes to process that. I’ll even repeat it. The Rangers (43-62) beat the Astros (67-38, tied with the Yankees for second best in all of baseball), 11-2. This reminds me so much of the Rangers of the seventies. They couldn’t beat the teams they should beat, but would go nuts on the best teams, beating them with similar scores. Gallardo got the win, who has been their best pitcher, since they got him back, earlier this season. I’ve always liked him.

TODAY’S DEVOTIONAL AND PRAYERS
All Scriptures are from the ESV unless otherwise noted

A Song of Ascents. Of David.
If it had not been the LORD who was on our side— let Israel now say— 
if it had not been the LORD who was on our side when people rose up against us, 
then they would have swallowed us up alive, when their anger was kindled against us; 
then the flood would have swept us away, the torrent would have gone over us; 
then over us would have gone the raging waters. 
Blessed be the LORD, who has not given us as prey to their teeth! 
We have escaped like a bird from the snare of the fowlers; the snare is broken, and we have escaped! 
Our help is in the name of the LORD, who made heaven and earth.

Psalm 124

We have to be careful, in reading Psalms such as this one, to remember who wrote it and of whom it speaks. One key is in verse 1, “let Israel now say.” Israel is the only nation in history who could ever say, accurately, “The Lord is on our side.” There seem to be some people in the USA who believe that the Lord is on “our side.” That is a false statement. Just as it is false to say that the USA is a Christian nation. I have said this before in this blog, and will, most likely, say it again. There is no such thing as a “Christian nation.” If you think there is, you are just wrong. Only people can be “Christian.” Now, if you are a part of the family of God, a follower of Jesus Christ, no matter what nation you are from, then, yes, God is on our side. But I think it is more accurate to say that we are on God’s side, because I believe God is on God’s side.

I do believe that we can confidently proclaim verse 8, though, if we are part of the family of Christ-followers. “Our help is in the name of the LORD, who made heaven and earth.”

(From The Finishing Touch, Charles Swindoll)

For the weekend reading, we are redirected back to yesterday’s topic, the incomprehensibility of God.

To the choirmaster: according to The Gittith. A Psalm of David.
O LORD, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth! You have set your glory above the heavens. 
Out of the mouth of babies and infants, you have established strength because of your foes, to still the enemy and the avenger. 
When I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, 
what is man that you are mindful of him, and the son of man that you care for him? 
Yet you have made him a little lower than the heavenly beings and crowned him with glory and honor. 
You have given him dominion over the works of your hands; you have put all things under his feet, 
all sheep and oxen, and also the beasts of the field, 
the birds of the heavens, and the fish of the sea, whatever passes along the paths of the seas. 
O LORD, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth!

Psalm 8

What a great question is asked in verse 4! “What is man that you are mindful of him?” I have asked that about myself, numerous times. God, why do You even care about me?? You are so . . . “big” is not enough. Infinite. How can one be “so infinite?” Infinite needs no modifiers. It is impossible to be “very” infinite. One is either infinite or not. God is. I am not. Therefore, I cannot fathom how He could care so much for me.

“In a world consumed with thoughts of itself, filled with people impressed with each other, having disconnected with the only One worthy of praise, it’s time we return to Theology 101 and sit silently in His presence. It’s time we catch a fresh glimpse of Him who, alone, is awesome–yea, incomprehensible. He is our infinite, inexhaustible God. Any serious study of Him takes us from an unconscious to conscious awareness of our ignorance.
“The One we worship defies human analysis.”

Father, help me to get to a place where I can sit silently in Your presence for a while. I still haven’t managed to find that place, yet. Sure, I can have silence in this room, but there are still too many distractions, because, hey, I’m on the Internet while I do this. Facebook is open in one tab, my email is open in another. So, I may have audio silence, but not media silence. Show me a place where I can be solitary and silent before You for a while. I need this. Give me that fresh glimpse of Your awesomeness. I also pray for Your Church, that we may drift away from the world’s disconnectedness and habit of being impressed with itself. I am nothing before You! Who am I that You care for me, that You are mindful of me! I am Your child, and one who desires to follow Your Son more closely.
Even so, come, Lord Jesus!

Let your steadfast love, O LORD, be upon us, even as we hope in you. Psalm 33:22

Grace and peace, friends.

My God, Search Me Out!

“Do we believe that God can garrison the imagination far beyond where we can go?”~~Oswald Chambers

“The man who never in his mind and thoughts travel’d to heaven is no artist.”~~William Blake
(BrainyQuote)

Today’s word of the day, from Dictionary.com, is offing. This does not, as one might expect, have anything to do with ridding the earth of one’s enemies, such as in organized crime. Rather, it is a noun, meaning, “the more distant part of the sea seen from the shore, beyond the anchoring ground,” or, “a position at a distance from shore.”

Today is Play God Day. Judging from a number of Facebook posts, I know quite a few people who do that every day.

I had a pretty good day at work, yesterday. I might almost call it a “great” day. It was a good way to wind up a pretty tough week, and, as an added bonus, we all got to go home on time! On a Friday!! It was legen . . . wait for it . . . DARY!! We wound up having BBQ for dinner and watching the series premier of Angel from Hell, Jane Lynch’s new series where she plays a woman who claims to be another woman’s “guardian angel.” It was interesting. We’ll watch a couple more, at least, to see where it goes. I’m not sure I can see it having much staying power, though. Lynch was pretty good in her role, though. We watched a couple more Criminal Minds, and then I played Fallout 4 for a while, having not had a chance to play since last Sunday.

This morning, Christi is putting a bookshelf together while I do my rambling in here. Not sure what we will do after that. I think we are planning to go see Star Wars with Rachel and Justin tomorrow afternoon, so we will probably hit up the grocery store later.

The Powerball lottery is up to an unprecedented $900 million for tonight’s drawing. Officials claim that 65% of the possible combinations have been sold. I rarely buy lottery tickets, but I have for this one. No harm in throwing away a few bucks for a chance to win nearly a billion, right?

On this date in 1493, Christopher Columbus, while sailing near the Dominican Republic, mistook three manatees for mermaids, writing that they were “not half as beautiful as they are painted.”

Today’s birthdays include:

1554–Pope Gregory XV
1901–Chic Young, American cartoonist, Blondie
1913–Richard M. Nixon, 37th President of the United States
1925–Lee Van Cleef, American actor, spaghetti westerns
1928–Judith Krantz, American author
1931–Algis Budrys, American author
1933–Wilbur Smith, Zambian-British novelist
1934–Bart Starr, American football player
1935–Dick Enberg, American sportscaster
1935–Bob Denver, American actor, Gilligan’s Island, Dobie Gillis
1936–Anne Rivers Siddons, American writer
1939–Susannah York, British actress, They Shoot Horses, Don’t They?
1941–Joan Baez, American singer/songwriter
1944–Jimmy Page, British guitarist, Led Zeppelin
1948–Bill Cowsill, American singer
1950–David Johansen, American singer, New York Dolls
1951–Crystal Gayle, American country singer
1955–J.K. Simmons, American actor, The Closer
1965–Joely Richardson, British actress, Nip Tuck
1967–Dave Matthews, South African singer/musician
1967–Steve Harwell, American singer, Smash Mouth
1967–Carl Bell, American musician, Fuel
1968–Joey Lauren Adams, American actress
1973–Angela Bettis, American actress, Carrie
1982–Kate Middleton, yes, that Kate Middleton
1989–Nina Dobrev, Bulgarian actress, Vampire Diaries

Wow, that’s a lot of birthdays! It is very difficult to pick just one of those to highlight . . . let’s see . . .

I’ll surprise everyone, here. Bart Starr was the quarterback for the Green Bay Packers in the mid to late sixties, along the same time frame that my all time favorite quarterback, Don Meredith, was the QB for the Dallas Cowboys. My strongest memory of Bart Starr is in this infamous game against the Cowboys in 1967. With 16 seconds left in the “Ice Bowl,” the Cowboys led 17-14. Bart Starr performed his now famous “Quarterback Sneak,” scoring a touchdown. The Packers would win the game, which was, at that time, the “World Championship” (there was no Super Bowl, yet), 21-17.

By the way, Starr and his wife have been married for over 60 years.

TODAY’S DEVOTIONAL

(From Praying With the Psalms)

O LORD, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth! You have set your glory above the heavens.
Out of the mouth of babies and infants, you have established strength because of your foes, to still the enemy and the avenger.
When I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place,
what is man that you are mindful of him, and the son of man that you care for him?
Yet you have made him a little lower than the heavenly beings and crowned him with glory and honor.

You have given him dominion over the works of your hands; you have put all things under his feet,
all sheep and oxen, and also the beasts of the field,
the birds of the heavens, and the fish of the sea, whatever passes along the paths of the seas.
O LORD, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth!

Psalm 8

Compared to the universe, human beings are midgets, in physical size; barely noticeable, specks of “cosmic dust.” However, in spiritual terms, they are giants. In the purposes and plans of the Creator, “crowned . . . with glory and honor.”

“Lord, I look at the skies and am humbled–I am such a minute item in your creation. Then I listen to your word and am exalted–I am such an honored child! ‘How majestic is thy name in all the earth!’ Amen.”

(From My Utmost For His Highest)

Now may the God of peace himself sanctify you completely, and may your whole spirit and soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.
1 Thessalonians 5:23

“The great mystical work of the Holy Spirit is in the dim regions of our personality which we cannot get at.” I think it is worth reading that sentence a few more times to get the gist of it, to truly comprehend what Chambers is saying, here.

Chambers paraphrases Psalm 139, one of my favorites:

Thou art the God of the early mornings,
the God of the late at night,
the God of the mountain peaks,
and the God of the sea;
but, my God, my soul has further horizons than the early mornings,
deeper darkness than the nights of earth,
higher peaks than any mountain peaks,
greater depths than any sea in nature–
Thou who are the God of all these,
be my God.
I cannot reach to the heights or to the depths;
there are motives I cannot trace,
dreams I cannot get at–
my God, search me out.

“Do we believe that God can garrison the imagination far beyond where we can go?” We believe that the blood of Jesus Christ cleanses us from all sin. But “if that means in conscious experience only, may God have mercy on us.” To “garrison” means to defend or to guard, to place troops around. Do we truly believe that God can, by way of the Holy Spirit, defend our innermost being? “Cleansing from sin is to the very heights and depths of our spirit if we will keep in the light as God is in the light, and the very Spirit that fed the life of Jesus Christ will feed the life or our spirits.”

These are some amazing truths that we should allow our minds to dwell on more than we do.

Father, stretch my mind and my spirit to truly believe these truths. I have read this particular devotional reading at least four times in my life, probably more. Every time I read it, it staggers me. Yet, I continue to walk away and forget what I have read. I pray for this truth to stick with me, this time. Garrison my imagination! Take it farther down than I could ever go, to places that i cannot reach, to those motives that I cannot trace and those dreams I cannot get at. Search me, O God, and then cleanse me, inside and out. My heart’s desire is that I not only be cleansed from outward sin, but that my very being would be cleansed from ever desiring to sin again.

Come, Lord Jesus!

Grace and peace, friends.

Knowing

Good morning. It’s Friday, June 8, 2012. One day closer to whatever’s next. Today is “Best Friends Day.” Who’s your best friend? Mine is my wonderful, amazing wife. Been my best friend for going on 28 years. i guess she truly is my “BFF.”
On this date in 1984, the movie Ghostbusters was released. “Ray, when someone asks you if you’re a god, you say YES!” “This chick is TOAST!” On this date in 1969, Brian Jones and The Rolling Stones parted ways, as Jones had allegedly become so dependent on drugs and alcohol that he was virtually non-functioning.

Yesterday, we had an almost perfect day. Christi, Stephanie, Scottie (Stephanie’s boyfriend), and I went to Six Flags Over Texas. In spite of a 60% chance of rain for the day, we saw very few raindrops while we were there. The sky was overcast and the temperature was very mild, making it a wonderful day to be at Six Flags. In addition, there was hardly anyone in the park. And, thanks to our weight loss over the last five months, we were able to successfully ride most rides. The new Texas Giant is amazing, by the way, with turns that are, literally, completely sideways. Christi and I rode in the back car the first time (yes, we rode it twice), and I thought I was going to come out of my seat on the first drop. And several times after that… I swear I was a foot off my seat several times. The biggest test was the Titan. They have this block that they use to test if the bar is far enough down. I passed the test, and was able to ride the Titan, as well. It was truly a wonderful day.
Back to work for me, this morning, and Christi has one more day off before she heads back to work for Supermedia on Monday morning.


Father, I pray for some vision of you this morning, as I read your words. Teach me your ways, that I may walk in your truth.


Today, I’m reading Psalms 8, 38, 68, 98, and 128.

Have you ever wondered why God even bothers with us? I think that is the sentiment being expressed in Psalm 8:3-4. When I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, and the son of man that you care for him? Yet, he has crowned us with glory and honor!


My Utmost For His Highest

If you know these things, blessed are you if you do them. John 13:7

Chambers begins this reading by saying, “Determine to know more than others.” I’ve felt that way for years. I’m always wanting to know more. Of course, the catch is, if you know, there is responsibility attached. “Launch all on God, go out on the great swelling tide of His purpose, and you will get your eyes open.” We are not to spend all our time tied to the dock. We must get out into “the great deeps of God” and begin to know for ourselves.
If I know I should do something, and then do it, right away, I know more. “Revise where you have become stodgy spiritually, and you will find it goes back to a point where there was something you knew you should do, but you did not do it because there seemed no immediate call to, and now you have no perception, no discernment; at a time of crisis you are spiritually distracted instead of spiritually self-possessed. It is a dangerous thing to refuse to go on knowing.” I have experienced this, first-hand.
There is a sort of counterfeit to this, though, of which we must be careful. That is a state of mind wherein we sacrifice ourselves as a substitute for discernment. “It is easier to sacrifice yourself than to fulfill your spiritual destiny. It is better to fulfill God’s purpose by discernment than it is to “perform great acts of self-sacrifice.” And this: “Beware of harking back to what you were once when God wants you to be something you have never been.” Yes. I believe that is where I am right now. I’m too busy looking back at what I used to do…it’s very possible that God wants something else out of me now.


Father, first of all, I want to thank you and praise you for the wonderful day we had yesterday. We could not have asked for a more perfect day, I don’t think. We all had a marvelous time, and the weather was amazing. We thank you for this, Lord!
Today, I pray for this knowledge. I pray that I would have this discernment that is spoken of, this knowing, that I might be what you want me to be right now. If this means I need to forget about what I once was, then so be it. However, I still know that you have given me a talent that I need to be using for you. And this is where I seem to be failing. Help me to gather myself and apply motivation. I pray for the Spirit to drive me to do what you want me to do. But again, I pray for discernment that I might fully know what that is.

I pray for this day, Lord. I pray for a smooth day at my job, and I pray that Christi will have a nice, relaxing day at home today. I pray that she and Steph will have a nice time together today.

I lift up a special prayer for Kayla, Lord, and for her mother. Things are not looking good at all for Kayla’s mom. I pray for hope; I pray for peace; I pray for comfort. I pray for healing for her mother. I’m not sure if they ever found out what is wrong.

Your grace is sufficient.


Increase knowledge, but know that with it comes responsibility. As soon as we know and don’t do, we stop knowing.

Grace and peace, friends.