“I Believe! Help My Unbelief!”

Today is Sunday, September 11, 2022, in the 24th week of Ordinary Time.

May the peace of Christ be with you today!

Day 23,558

We wound up not making it to Mineral Wells, yesterday, after all. It was probably a good thing, looking at the bigger picture, because C wasn’t (and still isn’t) feeling great. But she got to Budget rental to pick up a truck. After filling out all the paperwork and getting the truck, the “check engine” light came on. She took it straight back to them, where she was initially told to just go ahead and drive it anyway. She declined that advice.

They wouldn’t call another location for her to see if there was another truck available. That location (in a strip shopping center, mind you) had at least five broken trucks sitting in their lot. She got no satisfaction from customer service, either, where she was told that they had to send a service technician out to see if there was really a problem with the vehicle before issuing a different vehicle. At that point, I advised her to cancel it, get a refund, and we would wait two weeks until the next Saturday I am off work.

And we will most certainly not do business with Budget again.

The rest of the day was spent doing pretty much nothing, and C got some good rest.

TODAY’S DEVOTIONAL AND PRAYERS

Lord our God, our Father in heaven, we thank you for letting our failures and sins come before you and for giving us One who steps in to help us just as we are, with the right help for the good and the evil things in our lives. We thank you that our whole age can be comforted, and even the terrors of our days can be turned to the good because everything has already come before your holy eyes. Salvation will come out of disaster, life out of death. Praise to your glorious and almighty name! Protect our faith in your Servant. May we always find strength and courage, even when we are in pain. The time is coming when your loving-kindness will be revealed among all nations on earth. Amen.
(Daily Prayer from Plough.com)

After he has suffered, he will see the light of life and be satisfied; by his knowledge my righteous servant will justify many, and he will bear their iniquities.
(Isaiah 53:11 NIV)

Today I am grateful:

  1. that salvation comes out of disaster; life out of death
  2. that our Father in heaven will remember our sins no more
  3. that Jesus, who went to prepare a place for us, His disciples, will return to take us to Himself, that where He is, we may be also
  4. for the promises of Jesus regarding faith and prayer; Lord, help my unbelief!
  5. for God’s constant admonition to “fear not,” possibly the most often-stated command in Scripture

"Let not your hearts be troubled. Believe in God; believe also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms. If it were not so, would I have told you that I go to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and will take you to myself, that where I am you may be also. And you know the way to where I am going." Thomas said to him, "Lord, we do not know where you are going. How can we know the way?" Jesus said to him, "I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. If you had known me, you would have known my Father also. From now on you do know him and have seen him." 

Philip said to him, "Lord, show us the Father, and it is enough for us." Jesus said to him, "Have I been with you so long, and you still do not know me, Philip? Whoever has seen me has seen the Father. How can you say, 'Show us the Father'? Do you not believe that I am in the Father and the Father is in me? The words that I say to you I do not speak on my own authority, but the Father who dwells in me does his works. Believe me that I am in the Father and the Father is in me, or else believe on account of the works themselves. "Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever believes in me will also do the works that I do; and greater works than these will he do, because I am going to the Father. Whatever you ask in my name, this I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you ask me anything in my name, I will do it.
(John 14:1-14 ESV)

fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
(Isaiah 41:10 ESV)

Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the LORD your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.”
(Deuteronomy 31:6 ESV)

When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I shall not be afraid. What can flesh do to me?
(Psalms 56:3-4 ESV)

“Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. And whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against anyone, so that your Father also who is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses.”
(Mark 11:24-25 ESV)


Sometimes, what winds up being typed here is nothing more than me “thinking out loud,” or, as the case may be, with my fingertips. In other words, I am in the process of working through thoughts and ideas as I type.

As I read these Scriptures today, as well as Andrew Murray’s reading in Power in Prayer, I am forced to consider some things.

That verse in John 14 has always caused me some . . . “distress” isn’t exactly the right word, but it might be the best that I can come up with.

“Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever believes in me will also do the works that I do; and greater works than these will he do, because I am going to the Father.”
(John 14:12 ESV)

“Greater works??” How on earth is it possible for us, mere humans, to do “greater works” than Jesus? I will admit that, so far, I haven’t received a wholly acceptable answer to that question. The general consensus, at least among people whom I trust, is that He meant “greater” in the sense of the scope of impact on the world. Jesus’s works, while physically greater than any we could ever do, had a small scope in terms of world impact. He worked primarily in Israel and the surrounding areas. His disciples would eventually carry His works to the uttermost parts of the earth.

But then He gives that powerful promise in13-14.

Whatever you ask in my name, this I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you ask me anything in my name, I will do it.
(John 14:13-14 ESV)

We see similar promises elsewhere.

Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.
(Mark 11:24 ESV)

And Jesus said to him, “‘If you can’! All things are possible for one who believes.”
(Mark 9:23 ESV)

And, of course, immediately after that last one, we have the famous quote of the father of the demon-possessed child, “I believe! Help my unbelief!”

How often I find myself quoting that dad.

Andrew Murray has an interesting perspective on all of these sayings of Jesus.

“The tendency of human reasoning is to interpose here certain qualifying clauses – ‘if expedient’; ‘if according to God’s will’ – to break the force of a statement that appears presumptuous. Beware of dealing this way with the Master’s words. He wants His Word to penetrate our hearts and reveal how mighty the power of faith is and how our Father places it at the disposal of His children who trust Him.”

I have been guilty of that, especially the bit about “if according to God’s will.” But Murray is right . . . that is “human reasoning.” Sure, it makes logical sense, but it’s still human reasoning. And it is adding something to the Word of the Lord . . . something that isn’t necessarily there.

Now understand this: Murray is far from a “name-it-claim-it” kind of guy. I don’t see that kind of thinking anywhere in his writings. He isn’t into the so-called “prosperity gospel.”

But he believes in the power of prayer. I mean the book I’m reading is called Power in Prayer.

So as I ponder and meditate on the things I’ve read, this morning, I will be thinking heavily about this . . . pondering the level of my faith and belief when it comes to these statements of Jesus. How do I work this?

Right before that verse in Mark 11, the disciples had commented on the fact that a fig tree that Jesus had cursed the day before was now withered and dried up. Jesus’s response was:

And Jesus answered them, “Have faith in God. Truly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be taken up and thrown into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that what he says will come to pass, it will be done for him.”
(Mark 11:22-23 ESV)

“I believe! Help my unbelief!”


Father, I confess that I don’t really know what to do with some of Jesus’s statements. It’s not that I don’t believe Him (or You), but more along the lines of “this sounds too good to be true.”

But, if we believe Jesus, and we claim to, then we should be believing these words too, and we should be seeing some pretty mighty works in our world, today. And I’m not seeing very many.

Or am I? Just today, I saw a Facebook post from a person who may or may not be a Christian, about someone paying for his dinner at a restaurant. I don’t know if the person who paid for his dinner was a Christ-follower or not, and neither does he, because he doesn’t know who did it. But it inspired him to “pay it forward.”

We spend too much energy, it seems on trying to figure out how to “pay You back” for what You have done for us, which is, of course, ridiculous, because we simply cannot do that. It’s impossible. The best we can do is “pay it forward,” extending the same kind of grace to others that You have extended to us. For forgiving others, as You have commanded us, that we might consider ourselves forgiven, and that our prayers might be answered.

Today, Father, I have already seen, and will continue to see posts of people declaring “never forget!” I wonder, when I see those . . . what if You took that point of view? Praise Your holy name that You do not, as You have declared over and over and over again, that our sins will not be remembered, because they have been cast into the depths of the sea, or thrown as far as the east is from the west. Hallelujah!

Yet we insist on “never forgetting” what a few radical terrorists did to our nation. Or at least that is allegedly what happened.

Father, as I walk through this world, on this journey of life, I pray to forget. I want to forget. I want to be able, like You to forget any wrongs that have been done against me, no matter how deep or how trivial. (Perhaps it is often the most trivial that we remember the most.) I want to be able to be that person that Jesus describes when He says, “whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.

I believe, Lord! Help my unbelief!

Even so, come quickly, Lord Jesus!


Jesus answered him, “If anyone loves me, he will keep my word, and my Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home with him.”
(John 14:23 ESV)

Grace and peace, friends.

Do Not Be Anxious

Good morning. It is Sunday, September 13, 2015.

Today’s word of the day, from the Oxford English Dictionary, is multiloquence This noun means, ” Excessive talkativeness or loquaciousness; prolixity.” Great, now I have to look up two more words. “Loquacious” is another word for “full of excessive talk.” “Prolixity” is a form of “prolix,” which means, “marked by or using an excess of words.” So today, you get three words for the price of one! I call that a bargain.

Today is Grandparent’s Day. I always thought this was just another day thought up by Hallmark, but apparently, it has some deeper meaning. Someone named Marian McQuade “instigated a campaign in the early 1970s aimed at highlighting the plight of lonely elderly people in care homes and encouraging grandchildren to take advantage of the wisdom and guidance their grandparents could provide.” So there you go. If you have any grandparents left, show them some love. Listen to their stories. Even better, record their stories! I can’t tell you how many times I wish I had recorded my grandparents talking.

We had a truly amazing time, yesterday! We went down for the lunch buffet at around 11:00 AM. The place we ate had pretty good food, with a very wide variety of types of cuisine. They had Asian, Mexican, Italian, American, and seafood, along with a very large salad bar and dessert bar. The dessert was actually quite good, too, which is rare for buffet places.

After lunch, we all split up to play some more, with plans to meet up at 5:00 PM for dinner. Christi and I played for what must have been close to four hours. I ran out of my “free” $50 bonus money early on, and started using money we had allocated for playing. The winnings ebbed and flowed, as the amounts dwindled. As it got later, we started on a journey to get to the other end of the casino. Winstar is set up in pretty much linear design, with a right angle turn in the middle. Each gaming area is named after a city in the world. Our hotel is on the London end, which is followed by Madrid, and then Rome, which is where the Global Event Center is located. More on that later. At the other end of the casino, is New York City. There is Venice and Cairo in there, somewhere, too. I can’t remember if there are any more cities represented.

We would stop and play a machine, here and there, but really had no good luck. We reached New York and turned around to head back. As we walked, we stumbled on a machine that I had really liked in a previous visit, a Wizard of Oz “Haunted Forest” themed machine. So I sat down to play. I used up what was on the last voucher I had printed, and put $40 more in the machine. On this machine, you could bet with $.40, $.80, $1.20, $2.00, or $4.00. On a whim, I placed a $1.20 bet, and got this “Flying Monkey” feature which randomly places some “wilds” on the playing board. I won a significant amount, getting my total up around $50 or so. Feeling bold, I placed a $4.00 bet, and won only $2.00. I turned around and put that $2.00 back up, and got the Flying Monkeys again. This time, they put a “wild” in all five columns! As the reels stopped turning, the machine started playing this lush orchestral version of “Somewhere Over the Rainbow,” and the amount I had won started going up. It stopped at $199 and some change! I had just won $199 on a $2 bet. I cashed out. Total won on that machine, $241 and some change. As I got up, Christi was coming to find me to show me that she had finished up with over $60 winnings on the machine she was playing. We walked away with just over $300.
Winstar vouchers

We met back up with Rachel and Justin at 5:00 PM and went back down to have some dinner. We ate a a place in the London area, called “Chips and Ales.” We didn’t have any ale. But we had some pretty good fish and chips and other stuff. We still had close to two hours before Jim Gaffigan’s show as was to start, so we agreed to meet in front of the Global Event Center at 7:00. I had found out that they would begin seating at 6:30. Since there’s nothing else to do in a casino, we played some more. I pretty much lost $20 during that time, cashing out with forty cents. Christi had put in $40 and finished up with around $11 or so.

The show was really great. I probably would not entertain the idea of going to another one at that venue, however. The place is totally flat (no incline until you’re so far back you couldn’t see, anyway), and they use those portable plain chairs that hook together for seating. What this means is that the chairs are right next to each other. All of us are pretty big people, which makes this type of setting VERY uncomfortable. Added to the fact that this show was sold out, it made things even worse, because there would be someone sitting next to us. However, a few minutes before time for the show to begin, a nice gentleman came over and showed us how to unhook the chairs, so that we could at least spread them out a few inches between us. That brought us some welcome relief. We probably weren’t supposed to do that, but no one official seemed to notice.

I can’t remember the name of the “warm-up” comedian, but he was pretty good, telling jokes about old commercials that we grew up with, and how politically incorrect they were. Such as the “Frito Bandito,” the “How about a nice Hawaiian Punch” commercial, and the Armour Hot Dogs jingle with spoke of “fat kids, skinny kids, kids who climb on rocks; tough kids, sissy kids, even kids with chicken pox . . .” Anyone in their forties or fifties would have loved those jokes.

Jim Gaffigan did not disappoint. He was hilarious, as always, constantly making fun of himself, without being vulgar or off color at all. He joked about hiking, kids, Disney World, and, to my pleasant surprise, finished the show with his entire “Hot Pocket” routine. It was all great fun. Except for when the possibly drunk person came in to the row right behind us, with only about 15 minutes left in the show and constantly giggled “He’s so funny” while loudly repeating every joke that Jim told, to the person sitting next to him. Ah, well. There’s always something, right? I didn’t let that ruin my good time. The show was fantastic, and we laughed more than we had ever laughed in an hour, before.

After the show, we hit the restrooms, and Justin and Rachel went off in search of snacks and, maybe, coffee. Christi still had that $11 voucher burning a hole in her pocket, so she found a machine just like the one she had won $60 on, earlier. There were two together, so I sat down next to her and put in my forty cent voucher. And another $20. A few minutes later, another $20. Then I got a couple of “Bonus” rounds almost back to back. I cashed out with $60, while Christi went on to cash out with $40. Walking out with $100, we had broken even for the night, which, in casino-speak, is the same thing as winning!

Winning

As I type this, this morning, we are roughly $100 up for our trip. And that’s including the $40 I dropped in about 5 minutes, playing Blackjack! Yeah. I don’t think I’ll ever try that again.

We have to check out by 11:00, this morning, after which we will pack up the car, park it somewhere else (it’s in valet parking), and go back to the buffet restaurant for our complimentary brunches. We will likely head back to Denton after that, and then on to home. We still have to get in our grocery shopping after we get home, which is not a great way to finish off an otherwise spectacular weekend!

On September 13, in 122, the construction of Hadrian’s Wall began. In 335, Emperor Constantine consecrated the Church of the Holy Sepulchre in Jerusalem. In 1501, Michelangelo began work on his statue of David. In 1609, Henry Hudson finally reached the river that would later be named after him. In 1788, the Philadelphia Convention set the date for the first presidential election, and New York City was established as the temporary capital of the U.S. In 1898, Hannibal Goodwin patented celluloid photographic film. In 1899, Henry Bliss was the first person in the U.S. to be killed in an auto accident. In 1971, the National Guard, along with state police, stormed Attica to end a prison revolt. In 2001, civilian aircraft flights were resumed in the U.S., following the 9/11 attacks. And, in 2008, Hurricane Ike made landfall in the Gulf Coast, causing heavy damage to Galveston, Houston, and surrounding areas.

Today’s birthdays include Milton S. Hershey (American confectioner), Arnold Schoenberg (Austrian-born composer), Claudette Colbert (American actress), Bill Monroe (American musician credited with the invention of bluegrass), Roald Dahl (British writer), Mel Torme (American singer), Barbara Bain (American actress), David Clayton-Thomas (Canadian singer, Blood, Sweat & Tears), Peter Cetera (American musician, Chicago), Jacqueline Bisset (British actress), Nell Carter (American actress), Jean Smart (American actress), Anne Geddes (Australian photographer), Dave Mustaine (American musician), Tyler Perry (American filmmaker), Fiona Apple (American singer), Ben Savage (American actor), and Daisuke Matsuzaka (Japanese pitcher, previously Boston Red Sox).

Peter Cetera is a bass player/singer, born on this date in 1944, making him 71 years old today. Egad. His best years were with Chicago as their bass player and one of their singers. He had a relatively dismal solo career, and I have no idea what he is doing today. Here is an early clip of Chicago performing “Dialogue,” with Terry Kath playing guitar and singing, long before he accidentally killed himself.

Leopold Stokowski, Tupac Shakur, George Wallace, Dorothy McQuire, and Ann Richards are among notable deaths on this date.

TODAY’S DEVOTIONAL

Today’s Psalm, from Heart Aflame, is Psalm 103:14-16.

For he knows our frame; he remembers that we are dust.
As for man, his days are like grass; he flourishes like a flower of the field;
for the wind passes over it, and it is gone, and its place knows it no more.

(From Solid Joys)

Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
Matthew 6:31-34

Today’s reading is, “Reasons Not To Worry.”

There are several great promises in this passage of Scripture. The first is in verse 31-32, telling us that there is no need to be anxious about daily needs, because God knows what we need. We simply need to trust his timing, as he is not ignorant about our needs.

In verse 33, we are told that, if we give our lives to seeking God’s cause, which is his Kingdom, all of these things will be added to us. In other words, if we seek the Lord and his interests above our own, he will provide for us. In my opinion, the cause of the Gospel is the only worthy “cause” on earth to support.

Finally, in verse 34, we are again told to not be anxious, specifically about tomorrow. God will take care of us. As my mother used to tell me, “Don’t borrow trouble.”

Father, I pray for my faith to be stronger, that I might follow these promises and commands, not worrying, trusting that you will provide for me. Help me to selflessly seek your Kingdom and support your cause with my entire being.

I pray for safety as we travel home today. Thank you for giving us a great weekend of fun and relaxation.

Come, Lord Jesus.

My brothers and sisters, try with all your being to shed your anxieties and trust in God’s timing and provision.

Grace and peace, friends.